Words of Wisdom

Youth is wasted on the young.

Monday 21 January 2019

Parenting Phase 3




Once upon a time the greatest worry I had was whether I picked her up or let her cry.
I wish it was as simple now.
She lacks direction. She lacks confidence. She is searching. Rejection is everywhere.
She desperately needs a break, for someone to take a chance on her; for I KNOW she will not disappoint.
But in the meantime I have to watch her pain.
Her withdrawal.
Feel her taking out her frustrations on me.
And all that's ok if it turns out in the end.
And I am sure it will.
At least I'm pretty sure.
Yes, I am sure. It's in my gut.
As surely as I knew it was better to pick her up than to leave her crying, despite what experts said.

Parenting is a shit hard gig eh?
I don't think it gets easier until you are like my mother; searching through her memories to identify the people all around her.
At least she's not wondering whether she should pick them up.


2 comments:

BrightenedBoy said...

"She desperately needs a break, for someone to take a chance on her; for I KNOW she will not disappoint. But in the meantime I have to watch her pain."

God, do I remember this. It's depressing to think that, eight years after I finished university, the situation for new graduates is pretty much unchanged. Is she living with you now? How long has she been out of school?

Tanza Erlambang said...

cute baby...
have a great day